The Last Chapter — Not to Prove, but to Fulfill
For me, I have already accomplished many things in life.
I earned a Ph.D., worked in Taiwan for more than a decade, built my own business and channel, and wrote my English Springer book. My green card has also been approved.
So if I still want to challenge myself by joining a major American company — whether Tesla, SpaceX, Rockwell, or another world-class firm — it is no longer about chasing a social label or proving that I am more successful than others.
It feels more like the last chapter I truly want to complete in my life.
If I can complete this chapter, I will feel that the cards I wanted to collect in this life are finally almost complete.
At this stage, I am no longer driven by external values.
Not by titles, not by comparison, and not by society’s standard definition of success.
After many years of living outside the system, and after coming to a deeper understanding of myself, I can clearly see that what drives me now comes from within — from the soul.
Sometimes I even feel that I am not making these choices out of strong calculation or purpose.
It is more as if a deeper force is gently moving me forward.
This body of mine is simply the executor.
I do not need to cling to a fixed external goal in order to know why I am walking this path.
This feels close to the spirit of the phrase:
“Arise the mind without abiding anywhere.”
It is not that I act because I am attached to something.
Rather, when attachment falls away, the true mind arises naturally, and action follows.
In a way, I also feel that, for someone who has lived outside the system for so long, what I have built so far is already close to the limit of what this path can yield.
So if I still want to go to America, enter a world-class company, and work and live in English, it is not because I am lacking something.
It is because I know this is the next chapter my soul truly wants to complete.
In the end, what I want is not more labels.
What I want is financial freedom, freedom in life, and true independence.
And if this final chapter can be fulfilled, I will feel that I have truly lived the life I was meant to live.
最後一章，不為證明，只為完成
對我來說，走到今天，我已經完成了很多事情。
我拿到了博士學位，在台灣工作了十幾年，建立了自己的事業、自己的頻道，也寫出了英文的 Springer 書。綠卡也已經批准了。
所以現在，如果我還想挑戰加入美國的大廠，不管是 Tesla、SpaceX、Rockwell，還是其他公司，對我來說，那已經不是為了追逐一個社會標籤，也不是為了證明自己比別人更成功。
更像是，我人生最後一個真正想完成的 chapter。
如果這一章完成了，我會覺得我人生裡想收集的卡牌，已經差不多齊全了。
我現在做很多事情，已經不是被外部價值觀驅動。
不是為了頭銜，不是為了比較，也不是為了滿足社會對成功的定義。
經過很多年的體制外生活，以及對自我更深的理解之後，我越來越清楚，自己現在做的事情，更多是來自內在，來自靈魂。
有時候我甚至覺得，我並不是帶著很強的目的性去做這些選擇。
而是好像有一股更深的力量，很自然地推著我往前走。
我這個肉身只是執行者而已。
我不需要完全抓住一個明確的目的，才知道自己為什麼要走這條路。
這很接近我所理解的那句話：
因無所住而生其心。
不是執著於什麼，才去行動；
而是當你不再執著那些外在的東西之後，真正的心才會自然生出來。
某種程度上，我也覺得，對一個長期生存在體制外的人來說，我現在所累積的成果，已經接近這條路所能走到的極限。
所以如果我還想去美國、想進入世界級的大公司、想用英文工作與生活，那不是因為我還缺什麼，
而是因為我知道，這是我靈魂真正想完成的下一章。
我最終想要的，其實不是更多標籤。
我想要的，只是財務自由、生活自由，還有真正的獨立。
而如果這最後一章能夠完成，我會覺得，我已經真正活過了自己想活的人生。
